how can we choose life in every situation?
how can we see the good in all things?
how can we focus on solutions more than problems?
how can we have faith?
how can we hope for good things?
how can we live a good, meaningful life?

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this weekend i received a lengthy message from a family member.
she explained that she worries so much because the world has changed
drastically in her lifetime, and while i might not see it, or understand,
that one day i too will feel lost and outside and shocked at how our world has
changed.

i see it already.
i feel it every day.
i'm saying things my grandmothers said.
but still.
for my own sanity, and for my children, i cannot, WILL NOT, give in to
despair. i will fight for joy. i will create reasons to play. i will remind them
that life is so much bigger than we realize.
we have rationalized, simplified, and reduced all spiritual experiences to emotional or
physical experiences, and i'm done with it.
i'm done with the egotistical mindset that I KNOW BETTER.
because i don't always know better.
i find it much more of a leap to say there's nothing else beyond the grave,
than to believe in a Higher Power.
it's an intentional act, but i'm going to grab hold of any moment of magic
i can find, and let it carry me for a bit.