Friday, April 22, 2016

sometimes i lose myself a little bit
in the thickness of walking with my children
watching them try on new and different identities
i lose myself

i miss myself, too

that comfort that comes from my deepest sense of self
that reassurance that touches back to a time when i felt at home

i know it's always there
but after time, that connection feels weak
just when i am trying to be strong
i am the one needing courage

it's always there
i just turn around
and see her
holding her hands open for me to hold


Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Saturday, April 2, 2016

Below are a few photos from the past month or so. It's been eventful, but as usual, I don't feel like talking much. I actually wish I did.

I got a new smartphone, which I hate. But I like the camera. I hate that I have a smartphone. So I like it and I hate it. I got a new one because I dropped my old one in the cat's water bowl while taking photos. Because everyone loves photos of cats....

We had a massive hail storm. It beat the crap out of my car, and my daughter's hand.

I discovered that I like hanging out at nurseries when I'm stressed. The plant kind, not the baby kind.

I might be able to keep this little guy alive...

I couldn't afford this tree, but I thought it was beautiful.

....and we have free cats if anyone needs one...or three.