Sunday, February 23, 2014

I wanted to post these yesterday but I had nothing constructive to say. And still, I am surprised at how much I am NOT enjoying this darkroom class. I suspected that I wasn't very detail-oriented, but now I know it for sure. I despise being told exactly what to do. I resent a list of obligations set before me. This is old stuff for me, but I don't want to grumble through this process. I know there are lessons to be learned, and good lessons, that will go beyond film and chemistry. (But I laughed to myself each time the instructor would emphasize how important it was to be EXACT....all I could think of was how EXCITING it would be to NOT be exact. Screw it up a little...on purpose...)

My husband has a wonderful view on it. Just do it. Don't be so rigid and exclusive of what will help you. You never know what skills or ideas will open up with each new experience. Add it to your bag of tricks. 
That's one reason I love him. He's an artist. Not me.


This roll of film is out of focus, much like I was when I shot it. 
The only shots that resonate with me are of my daughter with her dog, and of the man in the feed store. 

I think I'm bored with photography. I'm bored with myself. I would like to go on a fast of everything for a while. Stop eating, stop talking, stop analyzing, stop questioning. Is that possible? :-) 


Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say,"Nay, sorrow is greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed. - The Prophet

Thursday, February 20, 2014

"Life is indeed darkness save when there is urge, and all urge is blind save when there is knowledge, and all knowledge is vain save when there is work, and all work is empty save when there is love."
  - Khalil Gibran

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Friday, February 14, 2014

"Let your best be for your friend..." --The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

I read an article today that said that we are three times more creative when we are happy. I wonder how they measure creativity? Time spent? Satisfaction? Either way, I agree. I was very happy when I made these photograms. I was even happy before I made them. I spent the better part of the afternoon experimenting with the elements, "failing" at least half of the time. But I didn't mind. It's just a rush. And what makes me even happier is to imagine my grandchildren coming across these things I made. How odd! Grandma did this?!

Saturday, February 8, 2014

I recently discovered Susan Derges and her amazing photograms.
Camera-less photography is something that really fascinates me, but I've not found a way to make the images interesting. There's only so much you can do, right? (Wrong.)

Read up on her techniques, if you have a moment. I love that she incorporates nature, and that she makes use of the darkness of night to bring the darkroom outdoors.

I've tried to use the same ideas, with a few modifications.
I have no large body of water nearby, so I had to alter things a bit.
Using a tub of water, a small flashlight, two glass plates, and some foliage, I came up with the following:

Thursday, February 6, 2014

It seems that I have so little time to do life-giving things. It seems that I spend most of my moments doing things that must be done. There is not enough frill and nonsense in my days. 

In a couple weeks I'll be taking a class in darkroom film development. It will be the first time for me to learn the "correct" way to develop film, so we'll see how that turns out. (get my little joke?)

I think that I'm taking this class for several reasons: 1. I would like to learn to use an enlarger and make my own prints.   2. I love the magic of developing photos. It really is thrilling.   But most importantly........3. I will have three hours to drive in the car by myself.                    **sweet solitude**

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Glorious rainy day here.  Homemade Gorditos with lots of lime and pico plus Ryan Adams in my ears means I am well pleased.

February is a restless month. Too much busyness all around.  I'm all for productivity but can't we live while we're being good little workers?

I'm trying.