Monday, March 31, 2014

On Reason & Passion

      And the priestess spoke again and said: 
      "Speak to us of Reason and Passion."
      And he answered saying: 
      Your soul is oftentimes a battlefield, upon which your reason and your judgment wage war against passion and your appetite. 
      Would that I could be the peacemaker in your soul, that I might turn the discord and the rivalry of your elements into oneness and melody. 
      But how shall I, unless you yourselves be also the peacemakers, nay, the lovers of all your elements? 
      Your reason and your passion are the rudder and the sails of your seafaring soul. 
      If either your sails or our rudder be broken, you can but toss and drift, or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas. 
      For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining; and passion, unattended, is a flame that burns to its own destruction. 
      Therefore let your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion; that it may sing; 
      And let it direct your passion with reason, that your passion may live through its own daily resurrection, and like the phoenix rise above its own ashes. 
      I would have you consider your judgment and your appetite even as you would two loved guests in your house. 
      Surely you would not honour one guest above the other; for he who is more mindful of one loses the love and the faith of both. 
      Among the hills, when you sit in the cool shade of the white poplars, sharing the peace and serenity of distant fields and meadows - then let your heart say in silence, "God rests in reason." 
      And when the storm comes, and the mighty wind shakes the forest, and thunder and lightning proclaim the majesty of the sky, - then let your heart say in awe, "God moves in passion." 
      And since you are a breath In God's sphere, and a leaf in God's forest, you too should rest in reason and move in passion.

Thursday, March 27, 2014

I found an 8x10 blade easel (for an enlarger) at a thrift shop recently. It was in the original box and was only $3! When I opened the box, I found an old envelope with at least twenty 4x5 film negatives inside. My heart started pounding! What is it about finding old negatives that is so exciting?

So, the image below is from one of the negatives. I just love it. What a precious little girl. I feel weird that I have these family photos of people I don't know. There's no name or information anywhere on the box, unfortunately. 

Whoever you are...know that I will take care of your negatives. They have inspired me, and reminded me to take more candid photos of my family. I'm grateful that I came across these sweet images...


Sunday, March 23, 2014

This little road trip across Texas gave me an opportunity to see with fresh eyes. The top photo was taken in Ft. Worth. 
The middle photo was at a car dealership next to a gas station. That giant flag caught my attention. It seemed...odd. Gratuitous, maybe? At a car dealership?? 
The bottom photo is my favorite. I can't remember the name of the town, but it had a great atmosphere. Very colorful and quite cheerful, I thought. The doughnut shop was closed, unfortunately, otherwise the trip would've been even sweeter. (ugh. I know.)

Thursday, March 20, 2014

And if it is a despot you would dethrone, see first that his throne erected within you is destroyed.
For how can a tyrant rule the free and the proud, but for a tyranny in their own freedom and a shame in their won pride?
And if it is a care you would cast off, that care has been chosen by you rather than imposed upon you.
And if it is a fear you would dispel, the seat of that fear is in your heart and not in the hand of the feared.
Verily all things move within your being in constant half embrace, the desired and the dreaded, the repugnant and the cherished, the pursued and that which you would escape.
These things move within you as lights and shadows in pairs that cling.
And when the shadow fades and is no more, the light that lingers becomes a shadow to another light.
And thus your freedom when it loses its fetters becomes itself the fetter of a greater freedom.    

Khalil Gibran- The Prophet

Saturday, March 15, 2014

The family vacation. 

It's a crucible. 

Thankfully the laughter outweighed the frustration. After repeatedly reminding everyone around me that "nobody's going to die", I heard my daughter whispering the same refrain in my ear one particularly exhausting evening. 


I think it's funny that a woman who loves nothing more than being alone has found herself surrounded by three children and a husband. And she wonders, "Did I create this? Or is this creating me?"

Sunday, March 2, 2014

This is my first diptych. I used an outdated version of Lightroom and a tutorial that I found online.
Cold, rainy days are excellent opportunities for me to experiment like this. So often I feel too rushed to sit and take the time to learn something new.
I love that the image on the left was made by hand with paper, light, water, and developer, while the image on the right is digital all the way.


My darkroom class is looking up. No, I'm still not meticulous about the details (there was dust on my first print), but I MADE MY FIRST PRINT. It's just like in the movies, when she uses tongs to put the paper into the developing tray and then watches as the image miraculously appears. It is magic. I learned how to make a contact sheet, do test strips, and USE AN ENLARGER!!!

I was so excited to come home and use my own equipment! Turns out that I have everything I need to make prints at home. From taking the shot, to developing the film, to enlarging and processing the print!!

Is film dying? Are we really going to watch this process fade into obscurity? Even in the short time that I've been taking pictures, the price of film has nearly doubled, and I've seen more than one type of instant film go extinct. I realize that creating a print in the darkroom takes a LOT more work and effort than printing a digital image, but there's so much to be gained by learning this process. It's not about photography....

Small Town Texas