pick something do-able
If I could ever look at a photo and see the symbolism in my life, now is that time.
It's unrelenting. I set up all of my darkroom equipment, and printed photos for four days. I worked during the day and after the kids were in bed. And I had a feeling of satisfaction, tinged with anger. Everything seems to be tinged with anger lately. It's as if I am doing things just so I can say "I did it". There's not a lot of personal satisfaction involved. It's just going through the motions.
And photography is just lingering on the sidelines. I've drawn and painted. But still, nothing seems cathartic or relaxing.
It seems that everywhere I look, I'm angry. But with what? With whom?
I suppose it's all part of the natural process.
Denial and isolation
Anger
Bargaining (how?)
Depression
Acceptance
i hope it doesn't last too long.
hell, i'm even angry that i have to go through these steps.
i'm angry about everything.
reason says: this is all part of life.
i will just focus on keeping my feet warm...that seems do-able.
Comments
Ah, what the heck, just kill somebody! THAT will make you feel better. I know that it does, me! ;)
Nah. It's not about recognition. It's about finding some respite. Just stopping the hamster wheel of ridiculous worry. Trying to feel some happiness. ...
I hop that Christmas is a great time for you and your family, Jen.
Isolation
I pick up on it a lot but I also believe it's transient and often a choice.
I hope you have a serene Christmas.
And yes, isolation is usually a choice.
Right now, I'm grateful for my blog friends, some whom I know face-to-face. You are all good eggs, and I appreciate you.
maybe I should call you a good potato instead?
...and i you a Glutton. ;)
Sorry, FJ, I have been the prodigal son (daughter) more times than I care to count.
No apologies were needed, my friend. And you are right. I no longer visit her blog. But there was no falling out. I simply stopped going there one fine day, i guess because i was not being able to maintain the necessary distance ... the decision was deliberate and all mine, anyway. And she is aware of it. :)
And once again, Happy Holidays!
I wish you the same, my friend.
Did you pull some neat developing trick or is that "Detour" shot real?
How often have phone lines detracted from perfectly good shots?
They're almost as bad as traffic signs.
But then I developed it in exhausted D76. The shot of the tree and leaves was made in the same developer. I like the way it looks. Funny, but it was so much easier to control the contrast when the D76 started to become exhausted. That leaves/tree shot nearly looks toned.
And I agree about phone lines. But cell phones bother me MUCH more. Ugh. People looking down at their phones...