Friday, December 4, 2015

I think that, if we take action before the g-forces get too strong and start pulling us down, we can avoid circling the drain
Sometimes the struggle against gravity can be intense, and it can take up a lot of my time
but here i am anyway

i know that my circumstances aren't original
but they are to me (first time for everything)
and when i am faced with something new, that demands my attention, it's hard to find a different angle on it...other than my default (not sure what that is)

i am not a martyr
i don't suffer more than anyone else
i want to choose life in every situation

as far as i can tell, life begins to lose it's purpose when i stop serving others
that's not to say that taking care of myself is unimportant (it is most important)
but to be only self-serving isn't a good thing
taking care of oneself and being self-serving are different (obviously)

i don't focus much on what is going on in the world at large anymore
not because i don't care
but i found that it didn't help
it kept me feeling impotent
and i'm not
the world exists in my home, inside of me
and if i don't tend to those worlds, it doesn't matter what i do for the world outside

plus, looking at what's wrong with others is the easiest way to avoid looking at myself

there it is

it's not apathy
it's the courage to deal with myself (even if i don't know what to do next)
i guess this is the in-between place


-FJ said...

Wow, I wish this was my post. Loved the pairing, they (vid/poem) work well. :)

Jen Brimmage said...

:-) thank you, friend.

why do you wish it was yours?
i've never heard you say anything like that

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Jen Brimmage said...

I turn the music up, I got my records on
I shut the world outside until the lights come on
Maybe the streets alight, maybe the trees are gone
I feel my heart start beating to my favourite song

And all the kids they dance, all the kids all night
Until Monday morning feels another life
I turn the music up
I'm on a roll this time
And heaven is in sight

I turn the music up, I got my records on
From underneath the rubble sing a rebel song
Don't want to see another generation drop
I'd rather be a comma than a full stop

Maybe I'm in the black, maybe I'm on my knees
Maybe I'm in the gap between the two trapezes
But my heart is beating and my pulses start
Cathedrals in my heart

As we saw oh this light I swear you, emerge blinking into
To tell me it's alright
As we soar walls, every siren is a symphony
And every tear's a waterfall
Is a waterfall
Is a waterfall
Oh oh oh
Is a is a waterfall
Every tear
Is a waterfall
Oh oh oh

So you can hurt, hurt me bad
But still I'll raise the flag

It was a wa wa wa wa wa-aterfall
A wa wa wa wa wa-aterfall

Every tear
Every tear
Every teardrop is a waterfall

Every tear
Every tear
Every teardrop is a waterfall

Every tear
Every tear
Every teardrop is a waterfall

Thersites said...

Why? Because the words are original, they are your own. And because they fit so well.


Jen Brimmage said...


nicrap said...

Wow, I wish this was my post.


Bravo, Jen! It's almost inspiring to see how far you have come in past few years. Gives me courage. :)

Marcus Fidel said...

Very profound. Touched me deeply. An original, a great start to the Great American Poem you are writing with your life. The Book of Jen. You are but so brave to expose your self so much. I am impressed, astounded and heartened. You are an old and beautiful soul and I consider it an honor to be called your friend. This inspired have no idea how muxh. Thank you.

Jen Brimmage said...

thanks all, very much

Z said...

Marcus just stole my thunder; Jen, you have SUCH a book (or 3) in you, with your photographs....Such an important, beautiful, meaningful, touching and profound book.
God bless you, sweet friend.

Jen Brimmage said...

Thank you Z!

Ducky's here said...

@Jen -- i don't focus much on what is going on in the world at large anymore

You're a photographer, Jen. Can't avoid it.

Hadn't been out lately. Liked this one

Jen Brimmage said...

I like that one too, Duck.

No, I can't avoid the news, but I don't obsess over it anymore.