The enemy is rarely who I think it is. It's nearly always me.
I want to be a better person, but not by anyone else's standards but my own.
I want to possess a calm that is deep and abiding, and the past year has shown me just how easily I am shaken.
At 46 I feel like I am just beginning to have a grip on my thoughts. I was going to write "and beliefs", but that's not true. I am still changing, but I feel less pressure to identify or label myself.
I want to know my friends more and experience deep joy with them. I want to love people more.
I want to be less guarded, but not because I trust everyone, because I trust myself.
I want to see beauty all around me, in moments and people.
I want to feel content and be okay with stillness.
I want to embrace challenges and finish the goals I set.
That's me, looking at 47.